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[07 Oct 2016|01:24am]
[ mood | pensive ]

Everything has changed. It's time for the next phase of my life. I'm scared.

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Is there any body out there? [26 Sep 2016|11:46pm]
Hey you, out there beyond the wall, breaking bottles in the hall, can you help me?
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[21 Sep 2013|06:56am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

Well I pee'd and I said I would continue after I returned, I just don't know what to write now. But I am a girl of my word and I can't be looking like a liar now. It's really cold in my house, colder than usual. At least the sun is coming up now so I don't feel so bad about being up so early. Hopefully it's a nice day today, not that I plan on venturing outside or anything, the sun just makes me smile. Baxter and Charlie love the sun too, Baxter commando crawls along the grass in the sun like a fucking weirdo and Charlie sits at the window watching him like a creep. Actually Charlie is a massive creep, I've never had a creepy cat, he is still cool but like sometimes I feel slightly violated by the weird looks he gives. He is like a creepy evil mastermind who loves to steal my yoghurt and cheese. Plus he hates me, he will only come to me if Pickle isn't home. Baxter on the other hand, he loves everyone, even the cat. It's like Milo and Otis with those two, they play together all day and then snuggle of a night, Charlie even cleans Baxter's ears and licks his face...Yep...Creep.

I also have a lizard, he is a Blue Tongue, he is pretty big now. He doesn't do much except spend his days trying to escape his tank and getting nowhere. Lizards must not have the brain capacity to realise doing to same thing over and over again every day for like a year, isn't going to just work one day. Although, I’ll give him props for being able to stand up on his tail like a person. I'm slightly jealous, I wish I could work that hard everyday to achieve my goals. Who knows, perhaps I would be just like the lizard, climbing an endless wall of fail.

I need to pee again.

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Yearly random update [21 Sep 2013|05:49am]
[ mood | Lonley ]

Well it would seem it has been like two years since I have updated this thing, I just don't have the time, well that was a lie, I just can't be bothered. So much has happened in the last few years, I got engaged and am soon to be married. I'm working fulltime as a Desktop Support Engineer, I also now have a cat and a dog. It seems as though I have finally grown up and become a responsible adult who contributes and conforms to society. Who would have guessed hey?!
So it's 5am-ish on a Saturday morning, my Pickle (Fiancé) left for a bux weekend early yesterday morning and I find it difficult to sleep when I am home alone. So in all my boredom, I find myself here, the place I use to spend many early mornings writing random updates. Live journal had a certain feeling to it back then, I was young and found myself getting caught up in all the different worlds of communities. I use to get so excited back then, blogging was my lift. I guess this is an attempt to try and re-live those days. I don't really have any hobbies right now, when I'm not working, I'm fixing peoples computer issues, cleaning, sleeping or watching TV. I have lost interest in pretty much everything that use to make me who I am.

I have not played with fire in over 4 years; actually Pickle hasn't even seen me do it. I can't remember the last time I played any type of video game (excluding iPhone apps, but they don't count). I haven't visited any forums in forever, not recreationally anyways, I'm always visiting tech support forums at work, but they are not the same. It's hard to enjoy building ones post count when the super geeks fault your every question. Like I understand I am not 100% sure what I am talking about, that's why I am here in the first place.

I got a new car, had to say good bye to Vince. This one doesn't have a name yet, unlike Vince, his number plate didn't spell any name, well it did spell Bumvtsen, but that's a shit name. I'm considering calling him Ken.

My little brother Luka is in hospital again with a very serious condition, he has Ulcerative Colitis, which is a form of autoimmune disease. He is only 16 and they are discussing taking his bowel as steroid and immunosuppressant’s don't seem to be working.

I have had a few medical issues of my own lately, they found some CIN3 pre-cancerous cells in my Cervix, which I recently had removed, I am just waiting to hear back from the specialist to make sure they got them all. It was a bit weird to find out, but I am just glad that they found it when they did and that it was able to get sorted.

My mum and the kids are living back up in Queensland. I don't get to see them very often, like every year or so, which makes me sad. They came down for my engagement party, and are coming back down for my wedding. But that's still like 5 months away. I would go and see them but I have no holiday time left because my boss decided to take my sick days off my leave. I only just had enough time left to take off for our honeymoon, we are going to Thailand. Should be pretty cool, but hey anything beats work.

Pickle and I went to America this time last year, we went over with two other couples. It was epic, I find it hard to believe Thailand will beat Vegas or Hawaii. I didn't care too much for LA or San Francisco, LA was a letdown for me. San Francisco was just shit, one day in that fuck hole was too much. I did get engaged in Hollywood though, me being the massive Star Trek fan I am, he proposed on The Shat's star. He was going to propose on Lennard Nemoy's star but it was in the gutter and had a massive crack though it. He had apparently attempted the proposal 3 times before that though, once on the drive from Vegas to LA. We stopped at this place called The Rim of the World or San Bernardino Mountains. Most beautiful place I have ever been, but I ruined it by saying I needed to go to the toilet just as he was about to ask. His backup plan was to ask me at Universal Studios when Jaws popped out of the water, like in Mall Rats. Jaws didn't pop though. Then in Santa Monica he was going to ask me in a Ferris wheel, but just as he said 'do me a favour' the ride stopped. I'm happy with the way things turned out though. The best part about America for me, apart from getting engaged, was getting to see my best friend repair_her for the first time since she moved back to Canada all those years ago. So happy that she is flying over here to be my maid of honour.

Planning a wedding is weird, I thought I’d care more but I guess not. I am excited, but it's stressful as fuck and I really don't feel the whole Bridezilla thing. It's defiantly something that we are both contributing equal input towards. We are getting married on the beach on Valentine’s day, It better not fucking rain. I got a really nice dress and it has a massive trail, which I don't remember seeing when I first tried it on. I would hate for the dress to get dirty, I would hate to have to find an indoor venue for a backup. It's a beached themed wedding so that will fail without the beach, or at least look stupid.

16 years since my dad passed away on Monday, been a long fucking time. It doesn't hurt any less as time passes. It's still as unfair and shit as it was back then. If anything it gets more shit as time goes on. He isn't going to be here to walk me down the aisle, meet the man of my dreams or the children I hope to be having soon. He isn't here for Karen or Luka, Karen has been under so much pressure lately, her son is in hospital and very sick and to top it all off she fucked her sciatic nerve. She has already had surgery but it didn't work, so she is going to be spending Monday, the anniversary of his death, being operated on in the same hospital he died, the same hospital were Luka is currently staying. When will we get a break? I think we must have been massive Cunts in our previous life to deserve all this shit that keeps coming our way.

To be continued (after I pee)

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[02 Feb 2011|12:07am]
I'm changing my name to 'Dixon Yamada'
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[11 Jan 2010|11:04pm]
[ mood | pensive ]

It was my birthday the other day, I smashed myself...actually I was smashed before I even left the house. It was an awesome night, really good group of people to spend the night with. I have not had that much fun in a while. I kept going right through last night, It was also a really fun night. Its going to be hard to get back into the swing of things when TAFE goes back next month.



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*pictures* Did you just call me a slut?!Collapse )
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The hair mission [03 Jan 2010|02:31pm]
[ mood | blah ]

Karen: Your mission should you choose to accept it is to take a photo of everyones hair tonight...



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<3
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[27 Dec 2009|05:34pm]
[ mood | calm ]

never thought i'd be on a boat....<3

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[21 Dec 2009|01:52am]
w0w i'm so fucking intoxicated, don't tell anyone!

<3
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[17 Dec 2009|11:01am]
[ mood | awake ]

Greenday was FUCKING awesome! It was so worth the pain and bruises. We got there early enough to get a good spot in the mosh, so close to the stage you could see the beads of sweat rolling down Billie Jo's face. They played some old school songs too, Definatly a night I will never forget.




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Bite my lip and close my eyes, take me away to paradiseCollapse )

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[02 Dec 2009|09:43pm]
[ mood | hehe ]


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[01 Dec 2009|09:17pm]



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[01 Dec 2009|01:00pm]
[ mood | artistic ]

Random drunken adventures at Tysons house, he always passes out leaving me drunk and bored. One day he will learn not to do it.



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He asked us not to fuck him up that night, so me and Cherry cling wrapped everything in his house, including him and his car.

<3
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[01 Dec 2009|12:29pm]
[ mood | cold ]

Halloween 2009 At clearly_obscure's house...As it is my tradition to dress skanky, I went as a whore



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I know there are alot of pictures but thats not even half of them, had to cut alot out =(

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[04 Nov 2009|12:19am]
[ mood | numb ]

Here we go again...

hmmm

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[23 Oct 2009|06:43pm]
[ mood | weird ]

I just found these on Michaels Facebook, they are from Oktoberfest...They made me a little awww :( I had no idea they were there.

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I really wish I had my Stein from that night but it's at Michaels house, I'm so proud of myself for drinking that much beer.

<3
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[09 Oct 2009|08:15pm]
[ mood | blah ]

I pride myself in being one of the best internet stalkers...ever. Normally I can find out anything about anyone. Not this time. I have failed. *cries*

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[29 Sep 2009|12:28pm]
[ mood | numb ]


I am a little bit of loneliness, a little bit of disregard
Handful of complaints but I can't help the fact
That everybody can see these scars
I am what I want you to want, what I want you to feel
But it's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you
To just believe this is real
So I, let go watching you turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here cause you're all that I've got

I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored

I am, a little bit insecure, a little unconfident
Cuz you don't understand I do what I can
Sometimes I don't make sense
I am, what you never wanna say, but I've never had a doubt
It's like no matter what I do I can't convince you for once just to hear me out
So I, let go watching you turn your back like you always do
You face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here cause you're all that I've got

I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored

Hear me out now
You're gonna listen to me like it or not
Right now, hear me out now
You're gonna listen to me like it or not
Right now

I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
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[09 Sep 2009|09:19am]
I have a boyfriend ... *happy Dances* see my friends only post.

<3 <3 <3
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[07 Sep 2009|01:18pm]
[ mood | amused ]

I had to dye my hair a more respectable colour for my cousins wedding. It was meant to be dark brown but it went kinda black and some of the purple didn't take so there are bits of pink through it. Back to square one. I miss the purple/red already.

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